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Saturday, October 24, 2009

11:40 PM

First week of school fly by like a jet. It was okay, but it was hectic! And like i said, it's only the first week of school and i'm cracking my brain for some new modules. And and, research is such a nuisance! I don't like it. 'Cause it always take up most of my free time. Bleahs! Anywho, i'm lazy to type alot. So, those pictures over here *points to below* was what i did during first day of school. And i was so into it. It was fun. Play with play-dough! Woo! Okays dah. Enjoy browsing! (:

Friday, October 16, 2009

3:45 PM

I'll be random for today. So hush hush. And so i just got back from the opposite block, under the void deck for almost 3 hours being there alone. It was a 'let it all out' situation and also study period. I'm just feeling nonsense. Uh huh. I really don't know why. Well, plus minus, and vice versa. Understand it if you don't, otherwise, just ignore that sentence, and proceed to this sentence. I'm tired. I'm out of energy like anything, for thinking, for arguing, for debating, for saying sorry, for being stubborn, for getting scolding, for being ignored, for holding on too much and etcetra. [I couldn't possibly list everything out, can i? I could if i want to, but the thing is, i don't want to go on further.]

However, i'm in for smiling and laughing. But somehow, i feel that it's all fake, within me. That's what i feel. Well, sometimes it's true, and you can just feel it. Bleahs. What came over me now? Don't ask. I don't know. Maybe school's gonna start soon? And it's 3 days away. Holidays gone? Correct. Enjoyed? Abit. Maybe those are excuses. I don't know. -__-" And true enough, maths paper gonna hunt me down like in 11 days time. Am i chiong for the "nice" paper? Hell yeah, i am. Who's not, right?

But what if? What if i couldn't make it through? Everybody will be like oh-so disappointed in nisah. Plus, everybody will wrong me for being in this status. Hmm. You know what, i don't care! I don't want to care any of what they gonna say or whatsoever. 'Cause all i know is, i'm gonna do my best, be the best of it, make it quick, but also careful, then i'm done. Done for those two days. And i wanna pass. Please give me a passing grade pretty please, though i'm expecting abit higher than that. Please?

Anyway, sigh. Big big sigh. And i guess, i'm tired of sighing? I need someone. Someone who can be there for me literally. Someone who wouldn't make a downpour within me or literally. Someone who care for me. Someone who appreciates me. Someone who worries about me. Someone who knows my attitude very well. And someone, can bear it with me through thick and thin. And someone who does not have any regrets or doubts towards me. All that someone, will and do make my day. And i love that someone. I know who you are. And i do think that you know you are and you are to me. I just need you. I'm sorry again for everything, but i'm not sorry nor regret for spending my life with you. In fact, i want to spend my entire and bits of life, with you. I do.

P.S. If i want to fall, will you allow me? And if i fall, will you catch me?

Saturday, October 03, 2009

1:55 PM

As i've promised, i've come to update about my "holidays" during my stay at Manila. [Padahal it's a study trip. Bleahs.] Hoho. So, here is the story that i am going to tell you now. (: [And i'm doing this for bf especially and gf. (:]

28th Sept 09 [11.30am]

Okays, i'm on board! Hoho. On an aeroplane lor. Where else kan. (: Anywho, gf is happy very very happy today. Because of my family, my nicest gf and not to forget, MY SWEETEST BOYFRIEND! Hehe. So, i woke up early at about 6.05am. Heh. Had a long nice shower and all, then went to have our breakfast. Soon after, reached airport. Waited for time to fly by, 'cause i knew bf couldn't come since he told me he couldnt. Bleahs. I did hope for him larhs. Till i went from row to row, 123456789, and he stands infront of me. Okay. i know i'm kental to be doing that. Hush hush. (: Then syahirah gf text me that she will be abit late. Bleahs. I thought i couldn't meet her too since i know 100% sure that i also couldn't meet my bf. And therefore, it will spoil my mood. Duh. But but, I was taken aback. Really surprise. Bf called me, giving reason that he was at his friend's house, and yar, he just wanted to call. Hmm, okays. So we talked for abit, then...

Him: What colour shirt are you wearing?
Me: Huh? Why you ask seh? You're not here what. -___-"
Him: Alaa. Nevermind laa. I can still see you though i'm at my friend's house. Kater i'm superhuman.
Me: Tsk. Okays. I'm wearing pink with black cardigan. (:
Him: Okays. I see you.
Me: HUH?! No. I don't see you pun. Sembarangan jer. ):

So i kept looking for him till i found him at the side. [Pandai tipu hor! Tsk!] (: Honestly speaking, i was out of words. "He? Izwan? Bf? Am i dreaming or what?" Then the moment he smiled and i smiled, i knew i was not dreaming. Bf is there! Infront of me! Omg. I'm really touched. I kept on smiling, non-stop, even now. (: Thankyous dearest. I love you. ♥

So, syahirah gf and izwan bf, THANKYOUS, THANKYOUS, THANKYOUS! I appreaciate alot for sending me off. You guys sanggup anta me. Me, me, me! Yays! *clap clap* Seriously, thankyous again. I love you both larhs! (:

[1.30pm]

Alrightys, so now i'm in the aeroplane, [Didn't get to sit by the window. ):] updating, entertaining hazwani and oh not to forget there's TRANSFORMER: REVENGE! Hoho. [At last i did watch uh! (Y) Blueeks!] Anywho, i had a molm lamb for lunch. Don't ask me what it is, 'cause i only know that there's lamb and some other stuffs. Haha. In addition, i had ice-cream! Confectionary cube ice-cream! Hoho. It's nice. *kening naik naik*

[9.30pm]

Reached Manila at 4.30pm. Check out and all, then board the tour bus. Finally, got to our hotel. Got our room, then slack in there for about 1 hour. Met lecturers at the lobby then proceed to Robinsons. The mall was quite big though. I could faint, straight away. Anywho, i didn't buy anything much only bought a book; The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks. (: Again, we're in the hotel. Time to rest, but here i am blogging. Hehe. (: Maybe, i'm gonna read my book or prolly sleep. Hoho. Okays dah, i'm lazy to continue. Goodnights!

29th Sept 2009 [8.40am]

Okays, yesterday i slept at about 1.45am. I just couldn't sleep though my eyes were heavy. Pffts. Got to wake up at 6.30am to have breakfast but i still had the time to 'roll roll' on my queen bed. Hees. [This is me, always procrastinate. Bleahs.]

So now, i'm in the bus, on the way to a hospital. By the way, it's called ospital muntilupa. (: Anywho, i just put down the phone with someone. Had problems though. Communication problems. Bleahs. [Irritating hor for you to call me. ): Thankyous anyways.] I don't know if i'm gonna call again after hearing all those 'nice' sentences. Maybe i? Maybe no? I don't know. ): Maybe. Maybe i should just wish a goodnight and yeah, that's all, soon after, i will hang up. Yeah, maybe i should just do that even though i'm still, you know, yar, disappointed and all. [I can still continue to hold on.]

30th Sept 09 [8.00am]

Alrightys, so yesterday i finally decided to make a phone call. Yeah, was okay though. Anywho, the trip to the hospital was fun. One hospital was very budget while the other was lets just say, very very very nice. I like it. And oh, in Singapore hospital there's a room called nursery room. But as for the Manila's hospital, it's called huggery room! [Simply because you hug babies. Hoho. Cute name. (:]

Anyway, yesterday we took out chances to shop since our lecturers let us. Yays! And i bought alot of things! Well, kind off. Heh. (: [Okays. Nur hanisah is a cheapskate girl. What to do. It's just for the meanwhile. Hoho. Blueks!] Then, i reached home at about 9.30pm. [No wait. Since when it became my home? *smack forehead* Blurghs!] And i slept at 11.45pm, i think.

[3.00pm]

So now, we're on our way to mall of Asia! Yays! Well, before that, we went to a park, the largest park in Manila. It's called Rizal's park. And yes, me and haz took Thomas & Friend 'choo choo' train! I'm serious! Tak bedek! Believe it or not, it's true. Hoho. It was a nice ride and my lecturer BELANJA us uh. (Y) After 20 minutes of touring, headed back to our coach bus. Proceeded to Southville College. (: Yada yada yada. And er, there's limited lift. Pffts. Which also means, i did ALOT of exercising. [Oh my god. I am so rajin jor. *self-praising for abit*]